Saturday, January 20, 2007

Pain

Pain is the force that makes me feel the air with an illusion of hope and face disappointment. Pain is the monster that makes me see the world beneath a mask of truth. Pain is what awaits me behind every door I unlock, compelling me to acknowledge its right over me. Pain is the dominance to which I have to surrender.

Pain is the stitch in my side, the tears that well up behind my eyes. Pain is what prevents those tears from flowing down but dry into nothing in the lump of my throat. Pain is knowing I mean nothing to the ones I care for. Pain is loving someone who forgets me. Pain is the injustice that goes unnoticed, pretending everything's fine, dreading what would come tomorrow. Pain is what fades my smile the instant it is born.

Pain is a bird with a broken wing, a fish trying to live on land, my dreams fading to oblivion. Pain is a music that was never enjoyed, a miracle which earned no reward, an achievement that will never be recognised. Pain is not knowing and having to wonder. Pain is that endless wait for a loving gesture. Pain is a tear in my mother's eye. Pain is witnessing an emotional goodbye. Pain is having to say goodbye. Pain is not being able to say goodbye.

Pain is knowing words can kill. Pain is knowing I will die soon. Pain is knowing I will die before I accomplish. Pain is knowing I was not born to accomplish. Pain is someone telling me I'm not good enough. Pain is nobody loving me as much as I need to be loved. Pain is nobody wanting my love. Pain is wanting to die. Pain is someone saving me when I want to die. Pain is all that is there in my life. Pain is life.

PS: I am one of the strongest persons I have not known.

7 comments:

Kavya said...

Brilliant expression.
aaaand, may i know the inspiration behind this piece of work?:)

Purab said...

why the sad emotion? everything allright with you?

Karry said...

When I wrote the latest on my blog, I thought for a moment I had come close to your talent in writing about these emotions.

Now, I know I was grossly wrong.
I bow down to you, yet again, little sister. :)

i Mind G said...

pain is a by-product of fear!

Sandy said...

Pain is coming to know that there is no hope left. Pain is clinging onto that wretched bond, knowing very well that there IS NO hope. Pain is when you find yourself naked, alone and drifting in a crowd. Pain is that look in the eye of people who trusted you and you let down. Pain is the helpless sinking feeling you get when things so dear to you are changing right in front and you cant do anything about them. Pain is wanting to say something from the bottom of your heart and not being able to. Pain is knowing that some wounds will never heal. Pain is knowing that you are getting the shit you deserve to get in this world.

Pain! pain is good monsieur.

Anonymous said...

Pain is reading wonderful posts like these and not finding the good word to praise it

Nakul

M Ramya said...

Just how did u come up with this? Excellent.